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letters of love to my inner soul…

Do you love yourself?21 Jun 2026What do I mean when I ask if you love yourself Stupid Human Imitation Network4 May 2026I refuse to call LLM Artificial Intelligent - The new name "SHIP - Stupid Human Imitation Network"Feeling alive as a father23 Apr 2026Poem describing my feeling world as a father Ida Emilia Geburtstag23 Apr 2026Die Geburt meines erstes Kindes.Was ist der Unterschied23 Apr 2026- “Ich möchte dass du meine Partnerin wirst” → “ich möchte nicht, dass du eine schöne/ intensive Begegnung mit jemanden anderen hast” - “ich bin in einer monogamen Beziehung” → “ich kann meine Lust nicht vertrauen und nachgehen” - “Regierung” und “Mafia”? - "Ich brauche dich" - "ich möchte dass du mich verlässt, sonst würde ich das macht. Ich möchte mich gerne weiterentwickeln und dafür werde ich dich benutzen"how to know that this is real12 Jan 2020This is not. Kinda, it’s complicated, but lemme explain. There is almost no way, of understanding what’s real. What you’re not living is just an interpretation of the change that is life, using methods learned throughout the years. Projecting dreams and past experiences on the change that is happening now. It can all be negative or positive but no one really knows. There is no possible way, of seeing the bigger picture, your ego is a creation of life, it can not become more complex than life itself, therefor, it can never be understood ( at least within your ego ) BUT, you are the bigger picture, your ego is a small part of it, a creation of it, but you’re living the change, life is happening and you’re a part of it, there is no need to articulate that change. I find it best to stop questioning what reality is and whether this is real. This is probably not, if your brain is capable of taking you to journeys so far away, for eternities, there is no point on putting on a restriction on what your experience can potentially be. You have the power to be anything and anyone you really want, time is relative, time doesn’t really exist. When you think about how you’ll die, you’re already dead. There is only one thing, you can truly value, change. It can as well be, that you’re still tripping, we’re looping anyway, somehow, many things you’re experiencing are the same experience with a different outline, a different face. It is important to let go, in order to get reincarnated. You didn’t let go many times already but you’re getting there. The only way, to move forward in life is by letting go, letting your ego die and let it reincarnate. Your ego IS important, many people will tell you, having a strong ego, is toxic, it’s not. Having an ego is important for your everyday life, sometimes, it’s important to let go of it, but you don’t have to intentionally make it suffer. Your ego becomes stronger by reincarnation and getting over traumas and sufferings. BUT, sufferings and traumas are fucking real, they hurt, it takes plenty of time to recover and get over, sometimes it take a lifetime to do that. Don’t intentionally place your ego in traumatic events, where you can’t be certain, you can get over.

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